here, I was very calm and though frustrated, not angry about it, just puzzled.
Keep in mind that this is some imaginary deadline I've decided to impulsively put myself on and has now developed into a dull aching tightness in my neck.
So this evening once home from the school pick up, I think I've got it figured out in my head and sit down to those tin man arms again. I'm pinning and pinning and missing something. At this point the kids are incessantly telling me how they are***starving*** (enter whiney scream where the asterisks are), so I figure, I need to stop being uber sewing mom and actually feed my kids. That's when it happened.... I cracked open the kitchen window as I began to work on dinner and in wafted my favorite aroma.
Yes, the lilac bush outside the window is starting to bloom and in that split second rush of air, all of my self-imposed craziness drifted away and I just was. It is a wonderful thing, that something so simple, yet so core can in a moment ground you back in reality so that you stop, take a deep breath, and savor. The next time I decide to put myself under a crazy deadline, I just need to remember to open a window.